CAHERI

Ive spent days, ive spent months , ive spent years 

trying to gain something back 

something that i cant get back 

wont ever get back

my very own identity

physical identity

it was ripped away
into chunks and pieces

i saw it all in front of me

the blood bath

 my bones

my teeth

my gums

my cheek

i used to be 

a flawless face

confident with every step id take

i stare in the mirror 

from time to time

looking at 

these ugly fucking lines

I walk around

i pretend to block 

what i see

the people 

their eyes

focused 

right in that area

fuck

 

im never envious 

when i see a beauty

i smile and admire

but when im alone

im saddened 

because

i cant compete

they say you cant love someone 

until you love yourself

love