Friday, January 25, 2013

my KTVU News internship!

This weekend I received GREAT news!

Through a great man I was connected to a wonderful woman at KTVU bay area news. We had a conversation about a possible internship via telephone and she asked me to send over my resume and availability. After days of nail biting and constant email refresh button clicks, I finally got the news!

So , I start this evening! 
I really cant believe this is happening to me, little Oakland girl from the hood.
I guess this is and all of the other events and things that have happened to me is really solid evidence that ANYTHING can happen to ANYONE if you just educate yourself and move forward in a positive way. I am definitely still into nursing. That is still a goal i have yet to complete and WILL accomplish. But for now i am going to make the best of this opportunity. 

I mean what if I end up having a talk show like Oprah or Ellen? I would give a platform to all of my people from the town so they can share their story. Also on my talk show they could recieve helpful information and resources and then... here and there i would give away cars to my viewers!!! 

Okay maybe I'm getting way ahead of myself but

" The ones who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do that. "

wishing you a productive,happy and healthy weekend.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

dad and love

I had a beautiful conversation with my dad tonight , we talked about love. His words flowed, he was eloquent and concise.

Dad and I never had a close relationship when  was younger. My mother left him when i was only 4. Dad wasnt exactly "responsible" , he never contributed financially nor parentally. I didnt really know the guy. BUT we did travel to mexico (where he lives) on vacations. Even when we traveled miles to meet this man he never showed up. My grandmother was really our dad. Dad was distant , but i longed for closeness. I dreamed of having a dad, a hero, a protector. I grew up, i turned into a teen, went wild, had experiences, got shot. This drew us closer. One day after being released from highland hospital my dad called. I had a tracheal tube pierced through my throat which meant that air didnt reach my vocal chords other words i couldnt make sound , i coulnt talk. I put my ear to the phone and i heard him cry, i couldnt say a thing. All i could do was listen and think about how surreal that very moment was. Our relationship grew after that. My father has went through alot but i dont care how much time it has taken him to get his shit together, all i care about is the fact that i have a dad and HE IS GREAT. My dad is precious , I am so much like him! My daddy has sooo much patience. He is humble and he is creative. My dad is growing mentally and well he is aging too. I see it like this: time is short, so i am going to make the best of my dad. Well our communication has been more consistent throughout these years. He has earned my trust.

I started dating someone last year. He means alot to me. He kind of completes me, well im not sure.
This young handsome man boosted my confidence and knowing that he desires me drives my self esteem. Its a little scary because this makes me vulnerable. Since i met him my life became bright. He was the light of my eyes, the fire in my heart. Before meeting him I had serious self esteem issues... i mean if you read any of the old post's you'll know. For me its a sad realization , knowing that someone has the power to do that. Love to me is bullshit. Its bullshit when it comes to dating relationships. Ive never trusted men/makes/guys/dudes. You know ive came to a conclusion that MEN WILL ALWAYS CHEAT. ALL men. It has to be in their DNA, i swear. I see it everyday,hear about it all the time. Well i guess you can imagine what happened between he and I. I love him but i wont permit disrespect. I have very little tolerance to men and lot of pride. So of course i ended it. But i did it knowing that after a few days im going to finally answer his call and we're going to get back together.

"You're playing a game" says my dad. I updated him on the great news i received earlier today and about school and of course about my breakup. I told him i broke up with him to shake him up but that i was going to get back with him. Dad said that it wasnt a good idea that I shouldnt play games that instead i should have some dialog with him about the issue and find a solution. I was impressed with my dads advice. He went on to tell me that I shouldnt date him if i feel he isnt mature or prepared to be in a relationship. He said that i should value myself and not deal with someone who weighs me down. He said that im going to the top and that if anything is weighing me down i should take it off of me , dump it in a bag and just throw it out. He said i have plenty of time to meet someone, the right one. It was deep it made me think and it made me emotional. Not because i was thinking of my partner but because i was thinking of my dad and how beautiful our relationship has become. Here he is giving me advice on love. He congratulated me on school he told me I had a huge heart and that i was beautiful. His words were so attractive and perfect. I love my dad.

Im still getting back with my lover. A wise woman , a woman who i idolize and trust once told me this " all men are dogs, you just have to choose which one's shit youre willing to roll with". It is true no matter what race, region,financial stability or instability, race or color men will always be stupid and they will fuck up and they will cheat , so you just have to pick which one is going to make you the happiest ...for all that's worth. I dont bet on love when it comes to dating relationships. I have some serious talking to do with this man of mine. This is a make it or break it moment and right now i feel like so many great things are happening in my life that if he was subtracted it wouldnt take alot to fill his absence. But then again I love him.

Dad and I in Mexico

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

my birthday.

DUDE! Im turning 23 next month!
That is really sad , to me. Like seriously where does time go ? 
Well on the bright side a birthday can also mean that a  little celebration is forthcoming.

Ive been thinking man.
I dont have many friends in fact I only have two. As much as I want to I cant trust my Oakland folks to be in good behavior if i throw a party at my house or somewhere. 
So what option is left? 
Actually no, its not like this idea is my last resort, it is actually an ideal birthday thought.

I would love to have a gathering at a chic, hipster, mature location. You know like MUA or something. My ideal guest list would include all professionals. Like everyone from my office, Mr.Silver and his beautiful wife, Kevin Grant, Nicole from FVLC of course Jim O'brien, my inspiration AR and staff from Highland hospital. I would also love for Julie the paramedic to attend. There are a few people I am missing, im sure the list will develop.

That's really all I want. To be inspired on my birthday. 
I love those people, I learn so much from them.

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Caheri's Closet

Caheri's Closet came to town and hit the ground running! This could have only been made possible with the support of my shoppers. I call them "Happy Girls" and/or "Gucci Girls". Why? Well I believe the key to life is happiness , also Happy girls are the prettiest and well ultimately I just hope to send good vibes to my babies (oh yea i call my girl supporters: baby). As far as the gucci girl title ...well some people call me GUCCI , so a gucci girl means a girl that is on my side. I just want to clarify ...not ALL of my shoppers are girls , there are Gucci Guys too.
 I have gotten a good response from buyers. Mainly because I only sell things that I know the public would like. Seeing the success that Caheri's Closet has brought encourages me to take fashion design seriously. I have been working on creating new designs , new logos and trying to find a good quote on t-shirt and sweater printing. In the near future I will post my design drafts and maybe ask for your help in selecting the chosen one. Fashion design has been a hobby that i have been flirting with since i was 15. Have you ever gotten a glance of my regretful stomach tatt? It reads : LAVISH LUXURY. Well I got that tatt when I was 15 and it represented the name of my "clothing line". Of course now I regret everything about that tattoo EXCEPT for the fact that my very own older brother Gustavo tatted me.
 I would love to expand CC ... like make an actual website instead of using Big Cartel and also creating and online club where my people can sign up to receive discounts and giveaways also exclusive playlist's. I hope to continue giving buyers satisfaction and self esteem.

I dedicate this blog to my supporters: LOVE Caheri

Monday, January 14, 2013

KQED radio interview

Good morning to you all,

I hope you had a restful weekend , I gladly did.
I cooked turkey burgers and homemade fries with my best friend and I reorganized my closet.

This morning KQED aired a poignant/inspiring piece where I share my story.  It's still a little surreal to hear myself telling such an unbelievable story, its even crazier when i sit and acknowledge that it really happened to me. This year will mark my 5th anniversary know since getting shot. Below is the link in case you are interested in hearing it.